The Submission Sessions Page 4
He pressed a kiss against her thigh and grabbed her hand again and placed it between her legs. "I want to watch as you make yourself come for me."
A hot trickle of moisture oozed out of her at the thought of having his eyes on her as she did something in front of him that she'd never done in front of anyone else. Kerri plunged her fingers into her wet hole, coating her fingers with her juices and then placed them against her clit. Sebastian's hands gripped her harder, and he pushed against her thighs to spread her wide as she began to rub herself.
Kerri slumped against the wall, tilting her head so she could see the expression in Sebastian's eyes as he watched her. His piercing blue gaze jumped from her groin to her face and back again, as if he didn't know what to concentrate on. Her pussy convulsed again, releasing more moisture, and she saw him bite his lip, like he was fighting the urge to taste her.
The unbridled want in his eyes turned her on so much that she felt the first twinge of an orgasm lingering just out of reach, but then a thought lodged in her head. Sebastian was holding back, denying his own pleasure until she'd found hers.
Her frantic movements slowed as the old feelings of inadequacy came flooding back. She looked into his eyes to find him staring up at her, and she couldn't figure out what he might be thinking from the expression on his face.
I thought it would be different with him, but why should it be? I'm still the same neurotic mess I've always been. Nothing's changed.
Sebastian jerked away from her and got to his feet, towering over her where she sat on the back of the sofa. "It's my fault. I'm giving you too much time to think."
"What do you mean?"
"I've read you all wrong, Kerri. I thought if I let you make yourself come the first time, then you'd stop worrying about whether you had an orgasm or not, but that's not going to work." He grabbed her hand and pulled her off the couch. "Let's start again. The only thing I am going to ask of you tonight is that you make me a promise, okay?"
Kerri nodded, her gaze fixed on his lips, desperate to taste him again. "Okay."
"If you want me to stop doing something, you have to tell me. Don't expect me to have enough control over my abilities to know every thought that goes through your head. If you don't stop me, I'll take your silence as consent. And I'd better warn you up front that I'm not going to give you time to feel self-conscious or allow that over-analytical brain of yours to get in the way again. When your body is crying out for more, I am going to give it to you, and if you pull away from me, I'll drag you back and just keep right on doing it. Do you understand?"
"Yes, I understand, but how do I know I'm giving you what you need?"
"You'll know because you're only gonna do what I'll tell you to do. This isn't a democracy, Kerri. For the next few hours at least, I want you to surrender to me."
Sebastian cupped her face in his hands and crushed his lips to hers in a kiss hot enough to melt her insides. Kerri clung to him, her hands pulling at his shoulders, trying to get closer, but he pulled back without warning and took a step away from her.
"You see that door over there? That's my bedroom. I want you to go through, climb onto the bed, and wait there until I come for you. When I enter the room, I expect to find you on your knees with your legs spread wide and your hands gripping the headboard."
Kerri did as she was told. At first, she felt stupid. How long did he expect her to wait for him? But, as the seconds ticked by, and she stopped listening out for clues he might be approaching, she became aware of her body. The warm night air kissed her skin and tickled her most intimate places. Her breasts felt heavy where they dangled beneath her torso, and she began to notice the way they quivered each time she took a breath. A gentle throbbing sensation sprang to life in her groin, demanding her attention, and she spread her legs wider, exposing more of her sensitive flesh. A hot trickle of moisture seeped out of her pussy and over her clit, and she bit her lip to stop herself crying out.
She wanted to touch herself, needed to come, and she didn't care whether Sebastian watched her this time or not. Kerri took one hand off the headboard and slipped it between her legs.
"I told you not to move."
Kerri jumped at the sound of his voice and strained to look behind her, scanning the darkness for him. She hadn't realized he was so close. His shape appeared at the edge of her vision, and she turned to face the headboard again, almost weak with excitement at the thought of what he might do. The mattress dipped as he leaned on the bed, and she felt his lips brush over her shoulder before he pressed them to her ear.
"If you do one more thing I didn't explicitly tell you to do, I'm going to spank you. Do you understand?"
The words were uttered in a husky whisper but that didn't lessen the impact they had on her body. The muscles of her pussy went into spasm as she got even wetter, and she had to clamp her lips tight shut to muffle a groan. The thought of being punished by Sebastian turned her on and frightened her all at the same time, but she didn't want him to misread her reaction to his threat and take it as permission.
She heard the rustle of foil as he tore open a condom and then his gentle gasp as he put it on. He slid up behind her and pressed his hips against her ass. A kiss on the skin of her back told Kerri that he was leaning over her, just as one of his hands went around her body to cup her breast. Sebastian nipped at the curve of her shoulder as his other hand curled around her hip, dipping down into the space between her legs. Kerri jerked when his fingers pressed against her clit.
She almost cried with relief when he began to move against her, rubbing her fast and hard. He plucked at her nipple with his other hand, squeezing and twisting the aching peak, sending little electric shocks of pleasure searing through her body. Sebastian's fingers pressed harder, and she let out a needy groan, wanting more. He let go of her breast and lifted his weight off her, moving away so the only part of him she could feel was his hand between her legs.
Her attention wavered, and she tensed a little, unsure of what he might be doing behind her. The question was answered moments later when she felt his fingers nudging at the entrance to her pussy. Kerri pushed back against the sensation, needing to feel him inside her. The first, gentle thrust felt good, but wasn't nearly enough. Just as she wished he would speed up a little, Sebastian obliged, sending her senses into a spin as he took her to a whole new level of arousal. She clenched her eyes tightly shut as the blood rushed through her ears, and her arms began to shake from the effort of holding on to the headboard.
Sebastian's voice broke through the haze, penetrating the wall of sensation holding her captive. "Kerri, I'm going to fuck you so hard that you're going to scream out my name. The very second your orgasm starts, I'm going to slam my cock into your hot little pussy and ride out the spasms with you. Do you hear me?"
She opened her mouth to answer him, but nothing that made any sense came out. Sebastian obviously wasn't satisfied with her groan because he pulled his fingers out of her sopping wet hole and slapped her ass, hard.
"Yes, I hear you!" Her shout echoed off the walls, and she lost her battle to hang on to the headboard as she tumbled into an earth-shattering orgasm, so intense she could barely stand it. The sensations tearing through her body made her head spin and her muscles grow weak, and she thought she might have to beg him to stop before she passed out. Sebastian made good on his promise and thrust his dick deep inside her. She screamed his name, over and over, just as he said she would, and tumbled into a second orgasm before her first had even ended.
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"Oh fuck, yes!"
He couldn't help but swear as he pulled his dick out to the very tip and slid into Kerri again, leaving him gasping for air and quivering inside her as her muscles rippled around him. Sebastian grimaced each time a spasm tore through her, tortured by the effort of holding his own orgasm at bay. The walls of her vagina convulsed around him, and he kept his movements slow and measured so they could both experience every twinge, shudder, and ripple tearing through her bod
y.
When he could take a breath without fearing he might lose control, he looked down at the woman lying prone beneath him. The sweat gleaming on her mocha skin told him in a way her words never could how her body had reacted to him. As her orgasm ended, leaving her breathless and spent, she dropped to her elbows, bracing her weight against the bed as she began to push back to meet his thrusts, making sparks explode behind his clenched eyelids.
One of Kerri's thoughts filtered through the haze as she wondered to herself if he knew how much she loved the feel of his cock deep in the pit of her stomach, and, suddenly, he had to hear her say it out loud.
"Tell me." He grunted the words out through clenched teeth, hoping that Kerri had heard him because it had taken every ounce of strength he had left to say them.
A string of filthy words popped into her head, and he heard her push them away, afraid he might think less of her. But when a savage groan tore out of him and his thrusts got even faster, she got the message without him having to tell her.
"I love the feel of your cock deep inside my cunt."
"Oh, God! Yes … tell me more."
"I want to wrap my lips around your beautiful big dick and suck you dry. Would you like that, Sebastian? Do you want to fuck my mouth?"
Sebastian lost the ability to answer her or hear her thoughts as his mind shut off and pure animal instinct took over. He struggled to suck in a breath as he lifted her hips from the bed and slammed into her pussy again and again in a series of erratic, chaotic jerks he was powerless to stop. Every muscle in his body tensed then released when an explosion that started in his balls tore up through the shaft of his erection as it swelled inside her and he began to ejaculate. The cycle of tension and release repeated, diminishing in intensity, until finally fading away to leave him with nothing but a deep sense of connection to the woman he knew he was in love with.
God, it felt amazing. Did I make too much noise? I bet he teases me about talking dirty. If he says anything about it, I'll just die. I could sleep in his arms all night. Does he want me to stay? Maybe I should leave? Oh, God. I think I need the bathroom.
Sebastian grinned and tuned out from the thoughts racing through her head. He didn't usually listen in without permission, but at certain times, when he was weak or vulnerable, he didn't have as much control over his abilities as he'd like. He eased his dick out of her, wincing as her muscles seemed reluctant to release him. After giving her a quick kiss on her luscious behind, and making her promise not to do anything crazy like getting dressed before he got back, he went to the bathroom to dispose of the condom. Five minutes later, she'd used the bathroom, too, and rejoined him in the bed.
The slightly haunted look was back in her eyes, and he guessed she'd been indulging in a little negative self-talk in the last few minutes. Sebastian knew he only had two options—pussy-foot around the issue and play into her state of mind by validating the notion that she was right to be so nervous, or snap her out of it before she allowed her old coping mechanism of avoidance to take over and ruin the experience they'd just shared. He settled on the latter.
"That's not very flattering, you know."
"What's not flattering?"
"The look on your face. I was hoping to see you glowing in blissful satisfaction not quaking in abject terror."
Kerri yanked the sheet up higher, covering almost all of her skin except her face. "Sorry. It's not you, it's me. I always find this part awkward."
Sebastian rolled towards her and grabbed a handful of sheet to pull it away from her, refusing to allow her to hide away from him again, but Kerri had such a firm grip, it wouldn't budge. "You keep saying things like that, almost as if it's some kind of script you've written for yourself that you're committed to acting out. If tonight proved anything, it should be that you have no idea just how sexual you are and have no control over the way you might react once you stop thinking and start feeling."
"That's easy for you to say. You have the confidence of knowing you're never going to say or do the wrong thing."
Sebastian tested her grip on the sheet again and smiled when she relaxed her death grip a little and let it slip an inch or two, revealing the swell of her breasts. "All you have to know is that you turn me on more than any woman I've ever met and that I've never shared such an intense experience with anyone besides you. There's nothing you could do or say that would be wrong, not as far as I'm concerned."
"Thank you."
Kerri's gaze darted away, and Sebastian knew she still didn't believe him. He wondered if she understood what she'd just done. The words had meant something to him, and he'd hoped they'd mean something to her, too, but she brushed them away without a second thought.
"Hey." Her gentle call brought his attention back to her, and he saw the regret shining in her eyes. "I'm sorry. Tonight was amazing for me, too. I always thought people were lying when they talked about having earth shattering sex, but now I know they weren't, and I'm grateful to you for proving me wrong."
He knew what it cost her to open up to him at all, and even though her words carried little emotion, it mattered that she cared about him enough to say them. He gave the sheet another tug, and this time, she let it go. Sebastian's greedy gaze roamed over her naked body, gliding over dark swells and curves he couldn't wait to taste, and he pushed his doubts away, too distracted to worry any longer.
"I'm the one who should be grateful, Kerri. Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?"
Her mouth opened for him when he leaned down to kiss her, but she pushed his hand away when he reached for her groin. "It's my turn to do something for you."
"Remember your promise?" Her slight frown told him she had no idea what he was talking about. The fact that she could even think in terms of owing him something in return for the pleasure he'd given her meant she was getting lost in her own thoughts again. "You promised to surrender to me and only do what I told you to. Have you changed your mind?"
"No, but I know you've been ignoring your own needs by focusing on me."
"Not ignoring, just delaying." Sebastian rubbed his thumb over her fleshy bottom lip, and he got hard at the thought of how it might feel gliding up and down his cock. "Now what was it you said you were going to do to me with that beautiful mouth of yours?"
Chapter Five
Only minutes later, it took every ounce of strength and willpower Sebastian possessed to pull away from Kerri before he came in her mouth. The things she'd done to him with those lips of hers would fuel his fantasies for years, but tonight wasn't the night to let her turn the tables on him by getting the upper hand. She'd accused him of denying his own needs, and, as Sebastian had squirmed and gasped beneath her while she tormented him with her skillful tongue, he realized she was right.
Nobody had ever given him permission to express himself freely. Not until tonight. Kerri hadn't been the only one to experience a personal revelation. While he'd been busy trying to ensure her satisfaction, Sebastian had discovered a new facet of his own sexuality. He liked dominating her and controlling when she had an orgasm and how she had it. And, unless he was sorely mistaken, Kerri liked it, too.
Having the ability to read his past lovers' thoughts and emotions was as much a curse as it was a blessing. Sebastian rarely allowed himself to be selfish, especially in bed. Many of his ex-partners had raved about how skilled he was and how he seemed to anticipate their every desire, and the egotist inside him had reveled in their praise. Why had he never realized that in focusing solely on them, his own needs were going unmet? His climaxes were just a side-effect of what he was doing for the woman in his bed, and he couldn't remember a time before tonight that he'd ever taken someone purely because he was so turned on that he had to have them.
Kerri scratched her nails over his thigh, snapping him out of his thoughts and bringing his attention back to her. Sebastian sat up and kissed her lush, open mouth, groaning when he tasted himself on her lips.
"God, you drive me crazy, woman." He tugged on her
hair and pulled her head back so he could lick at the spot at the base of her throat where her collarbones met. His other hand slid between her legs, and his cock throbbed against his abdomen when he pushed his fingers inside her to find she was soaking wet and ready for him. "I can't get enough of you."
"Then why did you stop me?"
"Because I don't want to come yet. I'm in charge. Remember?"
Her husky laugh curled through him, confirming how much she liked the idea of him being in control. Sebastian didn't need to read her mind to know that much. The only question was, where was her limit? Come to think of it, where is mine?
"I'm going to tie you up and make you come so many times that you're gonna be begging me to stop." The words were out before he thought to censor them, but he needn't have worried. Kerri's vagina quivered around his fingers in reaction to his threat, and he felt her warmth flood his hand. "You like the sound of that, don't you?"
"Yes."
"If you want me to do it, you've got to earn it." Sebastian released her and reached for another condom, sliding it over his aching erection and then lying back on the bed and resting his arms behind his head. "Like you said, it's your turn to do something for me. I want you to fuck me, Kerri."
He watched as she suffered a moment's doubt then shrugged it away when the hunger in her eyes returned as she raked her gaze over him. She crawled up his body and kissed his face, neck, and chest while her gentle hands clutched at his hips. Finally, she grabbed his erection and held it steady to lower herself on to it.
When her eyes glazed over and she bit into her lip at the sensation of sheathing him with her body, Sebastian couldn't resist the urge to tune in to her so he would know how it felt for her. An almost agonized groan tore from his throat as he experienced the acute pleasure of penetration from her perspective as well as his own, and he shut down his brain, afraid he'd come instantly if he delved inside her mind again.