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  Her email to him had requested that he didn't reply and let her know if he planned to turn up. Kerri had learned enough about herself, thanks to him, to know that she was better off not knowing. If he'd said yes, she'd have spent the days since talking herself out of it and thinking of all the reasons that opening her mind, heart, and soul to Sebastian was a bad idea. But the alternative didn't bear thinking about. He might have said no, and she simply wasn't brave enough to deal with that kind of rejection. Not when she would have nobody to blame but herself.

  "Kerri? Where are you?"

  He was probably standing by the table in front of her window. She'd dressed it earlier, placing a bunch of flowers in the center and laying out the cutlery and dinnerware, ready for the meal she hoped to cook for him later.

  "In here." She failed to keep the tremble out of her voice. "I'm in the bedroom."

  If she allowed her nerves to get the better of her, her plans would be ruined, and she couldn't allow that to happen. Kerri took a deep breath as she reminded herself that Sebastian had accepted her invitation, which meant half the battle was already won.

  When he appeared in her bedroom doorway, and she saw the way his gaze got dark when he took in the tableau laid out before him, the last thing Kerri felt was nervous.

  "How do you do that?" she said, her voice cutting through the loaded silence crackling between them.

  "Do what?" he asked, his stare fixed on her as he undid the top button of his shirt and yanked off his tie.

  "Make me wet just by looking at me."

  His gaze narrowed, and she heard him such in a ragged breath, but then he smiled as he slipped off his jacket. "The same way you make me hard every time you turn those dark eyes on me, I guess."

  Kerri sucked her bottom lip between her teeth and tried to see if he was telling the truth, but the velvet ropes binding her wrists and feet, and the soft lighting in the bedroom hindered her ability to take a proper look. "Are you hard now?"

  "And then some." He walked across the room to stand at the side of the bed and allowed his gaze to crawl over her naked body. "How did you manage to tie yourself up like this?"

  "It's easy if you use a slipknot."

  "Kerri … I hope you know you didn't have to do this for me. I'll take you any way I can get you."

  "Sebastian, I didn't do this for you. I did it for both of us, partly because the thought of submitting to you totally turns me on so much I can't think straight, and partly because I want you to understand how much I trust you."

  He leaned forward to run the back of his knuckles over her cheek. "This might sound like a weird thing for me to say, but I trust you, too. That's something I've never had to do before because you're the only woman I've ever truly been myself with. You brought that out of me."

  His fingers grazed the edge of her lips, and Kerri turned her head to suck one into her mouth, swirling her tongue around the tip. If she got her wish, he'd let her do the same thing to his cock before too long. He pulled his hand away and leaned over her, close enough to kiss her but not allowing their lips to meet. Kerri surged upwards, almost succeeding in finding his mouth until he jerked away from her. His husky laugh fired her blood, and she tried again, groaning in frustration before realizing he had no intention of letting her set the rules. She lay back on the pillows and waited to see what he would do.

  Sebastian came closer, but still he didn't kiss her. He traced the outline of her mouth with his tongue, dipping in and out of her parted lips before she could get a taste of him. When the fabric of his shirt brushed against her shoulder Kerri realized that the tip of his tongue was her only contact with him. If he could make her shake and groan just from touching her lips, God only knew what she'd be like by the time he finished with her. She couldn't wait to find out.

  His hand slipped under her head, lifting it from the pillows, bringing her face up towards him. A hand knotted in her hair as the gentle caress stopped, and his tongue surged into her open mouth, his lips crushing against hers in a kiss she was powerless to escape or control.

  When he pulled away just as suddenly, allowing her weight to drop back down to the bed without warning, Kerri's head spun. The expression on his face and the hard bulge she could see in his pants now he'd come closer made her dizzy with anticipation.

  He moved to unbutton his shirt and remove the rest of his clothing, but Kerri begged him to keep it on. The crisp white shirt and formal pants made him look authoritarian and powerful. Lying beneath him, naked and trembling with need for him, with her hot, wet pussy exposed to his gaze, made her feel deliciously vulnerable. He could do whatever he wanted to her, and she could hardly wait to find out exactly what that was.

  Sebastian trailed a finger down over her neck, past her collarbones and around the dark areolas of each nipple, deliberately avoiding the aching peaks, and he chuckled again as he watched her squirm to try to make him touch her there. His hand flattened out as his palm glided over her abdomen, and just when she thought he would curl his fingers over her mound and cup the flesh that was crying out for his touch, he pulled away, leaving her writhing in frustration and groaning with need. He grabbed the bottle of lube and the small vibrator she'd left out on the nightstand and slipped them into his pocket without using them.

  When he walked from the room, she wanted to cry out to him, but he returned almost instantly, carrying a towel, with his shirt sleeves rolled up to the elbow. He spread it underneath her legs, tucking the edges under the cheeks of her ass, then reached down to untie her ankles.

  When he stood upright again, looking down at her with that same, totally hot but unreadable expression on his face, she wondered why he still wasn't touching her yet. If he wanted her to beg, she would, without shame or embarrassment, but fear that he might deprive her for longer if she did, made her hold her tongue. Her silence was rewarded when a sudden, gentle probing at the entrance to her pussy was the only warning she got before he plunged his fingers deep inside her. Kerri's hips surged from the bed, and she thrust her body forward, trying to take more of him in.

  She closed her eyes as her body went into a series of spasms that would surely lead to an orgasm if he kept fucking her with his hand for very much longer. Kerri craved the climax even as she tried to hold it at bay, not wanting the incredible feelings to end too soon.

  The mattress sank on Sebastian's side of the bed, and she opened her eyes as he took his hand away to see him kneeling beside her. The thought of his hot mouth on her clit took her closer to the edge, but he didn't do as she expected. A gentle buzzing sound filled the air, and she shuddered at the thought of what he might do to her with the vibrator. His hand closed around her leg as he ran the dildo over the skin of her thighs, skimming around the entrance to her pussy and then sinking lower, to tease the tight knot of her ass. Kerri groaned with anticipation, unable to care that she'd inadvertently told him where she wanted him to put it.

  The cold shock of lube against her ass caught her by surprise, but that emotion was quickly replaced by one of intense pleasure. Sebastian pushed the vibrator into her, easing it back and forth, going deeper each time, until it was firmly seated inside her. Kerri felt the sensations right through her groin, and she clenched her muscles around it, greedy for more. Sebastian slid his fingers into her pussy again. His new position changed the angle of his thrusts, and he began to fuck her fast and hard, pressing against the front wall of her vagina, and stimulating a part of her body she'd never realized could be so sensitive.

  The walls of her pussy contracted in a sudden, almost violent motion that made every muscle in her body go rigid. The breath stilled in her throat as the feeling intensified, and then it broke, sending her crashing down into a shuddering climax that seemed to go on forever.

  When she was capable of coherent thought again, many minutes later, Kerri noticed a warm, wet sensation all over the inside of her thighs. She realized then what the towel had been for. Sebastian used it to dry her off as he pulled the vibrator out of her and, ev
en though his touch was gentle, Kerri was still so sensitive that she jerked every time the soft fabric came into contact with her groin. Sebastian wrapped everything in the towel and threw it on the floor beside the bed.

  He came to her side, kissing her again before climbing over her body and straddling her torso, still fully dressed. The slightly coarse fabric of his trousers brushed against the skin of her breasts and the firm peaks of her nipples, making her shiver.

  The fact that neither of them had spoken a word in the last half hour seemed right rather than weird, and as much as she wanted to tell him just how very much she loved him, Kerri didn't want to be the one to shatter the silence. Words were superficial where Sebastian was concerned, and they would do nothing but tell him what probably he already knew from the moment he first touched her. His burning gaze locked with hers, and she knew without a doubt that he'd heard her heart speaking to his.

  He unzipped his fly and let out a tortured groan as he freed his massive erection. Kerri licked her lips, eager to take the glistening tip deep into her mouth. Sebastian leaned over her and gripped the headboard with one hand and offered his dick to her waiting mouth with the other. She closed the gap between them and greedily sucked him in, tugging against her bonds when the urge to close her fist around the thick, engorged shaft made her palms itch.

  She groaned at the taste of him and sealed her lips around him as she began to slide up and down, sucking as hard as she dared. Sebastian let out a strangled groan, leaving her in no doubt that he liked what she was doing. Kerri sped up, determined to make him lose control. His hips jerked a little each time she took his throbbing length into her warm mouth, and she knew he was fighting the urge to thrust in to her, scared that he might choke her. She stretched her neck out as far as she could, ignoring the pain from the ropes at her wrists, and took him right to the back of her throat.

  Sebastian threw himself off her, landing on the bed beside her, his breath coming in hard, loud gasps. Kerri knew he'd been about to come, and she wanted to ask why he hadn't allowed himself to, but her question was answered when he rolled off the bed, tore off his clothes, and crawled into the gap between her thighs.

  All she wanted now, more than anything she could ever remember wanting before, was his hot, heavy body on top of hers and his big, beautiful penis buried deep inside her.

  Sebastian sheathed his erection and lay on top of her without entering her, supporting his weight on one of his elbows as he reached over her head and undid the ties holding her wrists. Kerri thrust her hands into his hair, reveling in her freedom to touch him wherever she wanted to.

  He shifted position, keeping his mouth on hers as she felt him grasp his cock and line it up with her pussy. He entered her with one long, tremble inducing thrust, sinking in to the hilt as the fingers splayed wide across her hip pulled her body down to meet his.

  Kerri tore her mouth away from his and let out a groan that was a throaty mixture of gratitude and arousal as he began to rock in and out of her. He grabbed one of her hands and sucked her fingers into his mouth to make them wet, then pushed it down to rest on her clit, telling her without words just what he wanted her to do. Sebastian looked down at her groin when she began to rub herself, fast and hard, and he grunted in satisfaction, then rested his weight on the arms pressing into the mattress on either side of her head, and began to pound his dick into her.

  Her clitoris was engorged and sensitive, and she realized she was ready to come almost as soon as she touched it. Kerri slowed her movements, keeping herself lingering on the edge as she watched Sebastian's face set in to a frown that should be frightening but was only ever sexy as he drove himself closer to orgasm.

  She saw his head snap back as the muscles in his neck went rigid. "Now, Kerri. Now!" he shouted, his teeth bared in a grimace.

  She began to rub her clit as hard as she could, surrendering to her climax easily because she knew he was surrendering to his. Now Sebastian had broken their bond of silence, she couldn't hold back the words she'd waited her whole lifetime to say.

  "Sebastian, I love you. So much. I love you … so…" Her words got lost in the noise of their combined groans and gasps, but she was sure he heard her.

  "I love you, too, Kerri," he said, as he sucked in ragged gulps of air when his climax ended and his body came to a shuddering stop above hers.

  He lay down beside her and rolled her into his arms as he closed his eyes, encouraging her to rest her head in the crook of his shoulder. Kerri strained to look up at him, watching as the tension seeped out of his face as his breathing slowed. She realized he knew she was staring at him when he began to smile.

  "You are amazing." He opened his eyes and looked down at her. "You know that, right?"

  "I feel amazing when I'm with you." Kerri lifted her weight up to rest on her elbow. "Sebastian, I'm sorry I've been so selfish. After you left me on the stoop the other day, I realized I'd never once considered what it might be like for you. I totally understood what you meant earlier about trust. I'm honored that you trust me, and I won't ever make you regret it again."

  "Hey, I've never regretted a moment with you. Do you have any idea how liberating it is to find someone who truly knows who I am but still wants me anyway?"

  "I can't imagine anyone not wanting you."

  "We all face rejection, Kerri. Some more than others." Sebastian picked her hand up from where it rested on his chest and pressed a kiss in to her palm. He frowned when he noticed a red mark on her wrist where the ropes had rubbed her sore. "Next time, we'll use something softer." He kissed each wrist in turn. "Maybe I'll learn how to tie you up properly. Apparently, there's a real art to it."

  "Yeah, I saw something on the internet about that."

  "You've been doing research on bondage?"

  "Not really, but I've been doing a lot of reading. What you said about my desires being normal got me thinking, or rather, it did once I'd spoken to my mother about it."

  "What?"

  Kerri laughed. "Don't worry, I didn't go into detail. I just told her that I was pushing away a decent man who I'd fallen in love with because I was scared of how intense my feelings were for you. Momma laughed and asked me if this wasn't just what I had been saving myself for. If not, I'd have settled for one of the other guys I'd dated over the years."

  She told Seb about Christopher and how ashamed he'd made her feel. Suddenly, his words didn't have the power to hurt her anymore, and she felt like an idiot now for allowing a scared but arrogant teenager to have had such an impact on her life.

  "Momma said I was a fool for letting that boy upset me so and that I should forget about him. After she'd interrogated me for a couple of hours and checked that you weren't married, or addicted to drugs or doing anything illegal, she said she didn't see any reason why I'd push a good man like you away. When I told her you were a doctor, she asked me if I'd gone soft in the head. That's when she said I should run, not walk, to wherever you were and beg you to give me another chance."

  "She sounds like a wise woman."

  "Wiser than me."

  Sebastian pulled her back down to rest against his chest. "Don't be so hard on yourself. You're more like her than you think."

  "I'm not so sure about that. She always seems to know the right thing to say."

  "If it was her words that brought you back to me, then I'm inclined to agree."

  "It wasn't just her. The research I did made me realize I knew absolutely nothing about the role that domination and submission can play in many healthy and very loving relationships."

  "I don't want to say I told you so … but I told you so."

  Kerri gave him a playful punch in the arm. "Don't get too full of yourself, Doctor March. I might like to let you take the lead in bed, but, from what I saw, I'm not what you'd describe as a typical submissive."

  Sebastian shrugged. "I don't blame you for being unwilling to attach a label to who you are. We are all unique, Kerri. What works for us might not work for others, and it's
only one aspect of our relationship."

  Kerri nuzzled his chest, allowing herself a few more minutes before she got up and showered so she could go and cook the meal she'd spent all afternoon preparing. But as the minutes ticked by, she just couldn't bring herself to let go of him. Sebastian's breathing was slow and steady, and she wondered if he'd fallen asleep. She couldn't blame him if he had. He'd done nothing but work like a dog since he'd walked through her front door.

  "You know, your mother was wrong about one thing," he said, making it clear he was still very much awake.

  "What do you mean?"

  He tumbled her on to her back and slotted his body between her thighs. "I'm not a good man. I'm bad … very bad."

  Kerri wrapped her legs around his waist, pinning him against her. "Yet I'm the one who has you trapped between my thighs. Just how bad can you really be?"

  "How bad do you want me to be?"

  She thought of half a dozen ways he might prove to her how truly bad he could be, but she couldn't decide which one she wanted to try first … so Sebastian reached down and got his tie, blindfolding her so she couldn't see what he was going to do, and made her mind up for her.

  The End

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